“Everybody has a chapter they don’t read out loud.”
So I realize I’ve been a bit MIA recently. There have been quite a few posts running around in my head lately but honestly things in my life have been falling apart more than into place, including my thoughts and words. Ya feel me? Are you going through something you didn’t sign up for? Anxiety, depression, heartbreak, betrayal, confusion, loss, hurt? Do you feel like no one understands? Or worse, no one wants to?
I think sometimes out of self-preservation we choose denial rather than face what we’re going through. We stay busy, push the negative out of our minds, blind ourselves to anything that’s causing us great hurt. Maybe we pretend it doesn’t exist.
If you had cancer, would you pretend it didn’t exist? Would you choose to forget about it, minimize it? Studies have shown that the effects of emotional pain far outlast those of the physical. Don’t deny yourself the healing hands reaching out to you, the hands that are gently yet earnestly offering to take all the weight, all the heavyness, and everything that hurts. He knows how it feels. How deeply He knows! He doesn’t want you to carry it alone. He knows you can’t. He is kind, so kind. When you lose human arms around you, let Him hold You, because He’ll never let go. Give up the fight, the fight to forget, the fight to figure everything out, the fight to understand, the fight to make peace, the fight to change what you can’t.
A simple yet profound thought has been filling my heart lately–
How would I know Him as Healer if I never needed healing?
How would I know His fullness if I was never empty? How would I know His power if I was never powerless? How would I know His joy if I was never in despair? How would I know Him as my closest friend if I never faced betrayal and rejection? How would I know His freedom if I was never in bondage? How would I know I needed Him if I was never in great need?
The sun rises. The sun sets. Never do we question or worry about this. He is that kind of faithful. When trial comes we’re so quick to question the faithfulness and goodness of God. But I’m learning that trial is proof of his goodness.
Because the deeper the hurt, the darker the night, the lonelier the heart…the deeper His healing, the brighter His light, and the more precious His presence. When life doesn’t make sense, when it’s completely wearisome, don’t push away the most refreshing drink of grace that’s right in front of you. He’s offering it to you. As surely as the sun rose today and will rise tomorrow, you are not alone. When it hurts, He is near, perhaps even nearer than ever before.
The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still. -Exodus 14:14
As surely as the sun rises, he will appear; he will come to us like the winter rains, like the spring rains that water the earth. – Hosea 6:3
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. – Psalm 34:18
He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. – Psalm 147:3
Bless the LORD, O my soul, And forget not all His benefits: who forgives all your iniquities, who heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from destruction, who crowns you with loving kindness and tender mercies, who satisfies your mouth with good things, so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s. -Psalm 103:2-5